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My fucking computer has died. AGAIN! I swear I’m cursed and it’s jinxed.

I don’t know. It’s yet ANOTHER bad hard-drive. This one was brand new in May, so we’re not talking about something that’s seen a lot of use. I shut it off when it’s not in use, it’s unplugged when not in use, I don’t play computer games, so it’s not constantly dishing data from its memory. It’s just a sucky piece of sucky crap. Luckily, it’s a warranteed sucky piece of sucky crap, so at least I don’t have to spend any more money on this demoniac machine.

I’m stressed because I have too many after-work things…some work related, some not. The non-work things are fun and good, though I have been too short of sleep lately, which is affecting my ability to handle stress in a healthy way. I’m short of patience as well as sleep and having a very hard time concentrating on things. I mentally buzz around in circles going “ohmygod, ohmygod, ohmygod AAAAAAAAAHHH!” I’m worrying about wedding stuff, I’m worrying about scheduling all my appointments, gotta get the marriage license, freaking out about the dentist (because of my oh-so-not-fun dental phobia), computer repair, dog’s spaying, HR stuff involved in my resignation from my current job, find a new job when we get back from the coast-to-coast trip, the magnitude of the ride ahead of us, social and work commitments between now and then, ohmygodohmygodohmygodAAAAAAAAAAAAH!

I’m having a really hard time keeping it all together right now because I have a LOT stuffed into the upcoming month-and-a-little-less-than-a-half, I’ve been chronically short on sleep on account of after-work stuff, plus dog care, and I am by nature a worrywort.

In order to combat the out-freaking, I’m going to look at the calendar and schedule several vacation days spread out through the next five weeks. A day to drop off the computer, a day to pick it up and run a couple of other errands, a couple of days off after the dog’s spay appointment so I can keep an eye on her, and a couple of days to finish my “wedding dress.”

My last day at my current job will be 9-12-08, so I have a week and a couple of days before the wedding in order to cook, clean, organize, get my shit together for the big trip, spend some last quality time with the House Varmints, and try not to have myself a nervous little breakdown.

I’m sure it will be all right, but lordy if I’m not annoyed, stressed, and not in the mood for another single addition to my to-do list.

6 Responses to “Annoyed, stressed, and seriously not in the mood for it”

  1. Herkimer says:

    As someone who has become brutally sleep-deprived over the past year, I can promise you that if you are able to invest some time in sleep, you will feel enormously better. The difference is huge. But I know sometimes that’s not possible. Here’s hoping you feel mellow soon!

    Congratulations on your upcoming wedding! I think I said that before, but I’ll say it again.

  2. meetzorp says:

    Thanks, Herk!

    I’m planning some “down days” soon. I can work ahead on some projects at the office so that taking a few days off here and there will not be a big issue. Then I will try to sleep late and have an afternoon nap. I know that sleep truly does “knit up the raveled sleave of care.” I’ve been through this before, and I always become crazy-go-nuts when I don’t get enough sleep.

  3. David says:


    So you quit your job? Why? seems like in these times one would hang on like a madman to a job.

    What is the cross country ride all about, have not seen a post on it, sounds interesting.

  4. Meetzorp says:

    David, I am quitting my job because I am moving out of the city limits of Kansas City, Missouri, and living inside the city limits is one of the job stipulations.

    I am not that worried about finding a new job when we get back from our cross-country trip. I’ve got a pretty solid skillset that can be put to use in several different administrative positions. I’m also not that picky. I’ll find a gig, and I bet it will be just fine.

    I’ll be writing about the coast-to-coast ride pretty soon. I probably won’t be writing from the road, since I don’t have a laptop, but I will be keeping a paper journal and will post the mother of all updates when we get back.

  5. David says:

    Cool, love the attitude….I mean, I do admire that mindset.

    What is with the ride…how long and “where to where”??

  6. Brooke says:

    Boo for stress but YAY for (most of) the stuff causing it! I wish it was less crazy for you so we could hear more about the wedding, see dress-making pictures, and hear about the bike plans. I totally live vicariously through your adventures and wonderful happy days. I am mad jellus and so excited for you. Congratulations. 🙂

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